Starting over every day

July 1 through July 7th

Calories consumed

Sat 2289
Sun 1748
Mon 1927
Tue 2189
Wed 1821
Thur 1710
Fri 1518

Exercise

Sat 1561
Sun 1057
Mon 487
Tue 1870
Wed 1057
Sat 2610

This week was particularly hard because I have been working security at night several nights per week in a grocery store. I would find myself getting the munchies more time than not and I had to contend with fighting the flesh and NOT purchasing those things that my flesh desires such as candy bars or fudge brownies or whatever you want to fill the blank in. Every time I would crave something I would pick up the package and read the calories. When I saw that it had enough calories to replace one of my regular meals I decided NOT to purchase it. Now, my friends, that was JESUS in ME and NOT ME. hahahahahahaha I remember a time I would have just given in and said " well, I can justify this because I am working out and getting exercise four times per week". I am finally making some good choices. As I like to say " Starting over every day".

This week has also been a particularly stressful week because now that I do not have a regular day job and my night security job has really screwed up my sleep habits not to mention being stressed out over trying to find a REAL job that pays what the budget needs for me to make so I can pay the bills. I have tried my best NOT to be stressed out but it is just not working. During these times of high stress I normally would be just saying "Oh to heck with this calorie counting" and exercise, it is time for me to self medicate and make myself FEEL GOOD." Once again, I have to say " this has to be Jesus in Me" working out the details and helping me to start over every day. I am still not losing any weight to speak of. My personal trainer is telling me that because I am hitting the weights that I will actually gain some weight and that eventually the muscle mass that I am building that is heavier than fat will start to burn off the fat calories and the weight will gradually start to come off. So, with that in mind I am starting over every day and learning how to make the right decisions. Therefore I can not focus on the numbers on the scales right now and I need physiology to take its natural course and just keep doing what I am doing and realize that in time the weight will come off. For now, my reward will be feeling great and having much more energy and the ability to deal with stress better.